One of the hardest days of my life,

Today's hot weather brought me back to June 2006, the month of my engagement. I can consider it as the best month of my life, but money wise was the worst! Because it made me broke (as Kurdish people says دايةع بووم). It is hard to put my feeling in two words, but I do my best to mix the bitter memories with fun.

As it is apparent to all that the hanging out of that period is awesome especially in parks!! But the problem was that I didn’t have enough money to take a taxi to park. Not having money made me think of lying (God forgive me). I used to tell my wife that I like walking all the way to Sami Abdulrahman Park, but in fact I didn't, because the weather was very hot and we could spend this time in park instead of inhaling the smoke of exhausts.

I could manage our transportations through walking and sometimes using 60m buses. But another problem arose which was the payment of the restaurants! Also I found a trick for that too, I used to tell my wife that I don’t like restaurant food because they are dirty! That is why most of the time we were buying cakes and Cola in park kiosks.

One day, I don’t remember well which day was it, but I am sure it was in June, I liked walking and I realized that I don’t have enough money! Then the pleasure of walking under the trees of park and hand in hand with my fiancé made me think of selling my mobile, it was a good one, Nokia 7610, it was called (kak Masood mobile). Then I decided to sell it. In the evening, we went to Runaki Park, I was thinking to tell my fiancé that I like Falafl, but I felt so ashamed to say that, in reality I didn’t like it but I was thinking of other future days! I didn’t say that because I found nerve-wracking and I spent good amount of the money in that dinner! In our way back we decided to have ice-creams because I remembered God is merciful (خوا كةريمة).

My wife knew all the tricks that I used, but she showed me that as if I have money but these are my wishes! When she was employed prior to me, we were going to the restaurants almost all the times and I was eating till I felt the pain of my belly without considering that I told her before "I don’t like Restaurant food because it is dirty"!  

I am talking about these days proudly, because these days made me think of others, believe in that there are people don’t have transportation money.  Human should think of others, this is the reality of life, but most of us don’t feel it or neglect it, not because they cannot see it, but because they don’t want to see it.