When you told me that you liked me, I just thought that you were kidding. Why you can like me, It is impossible. Moreove, you said you’d broken up with your girlfriend because you didn’t want to lie her anymore . And because of me. I felt guity of that. I’m like a home- breaker. I can understand a little bit about that feelings, the feelings of being left by someone you really need. Life is not a movie, You can never guess anything.
A few months ago, you told me that you really liked her. Because of her, you decided to stay home instead of going to study abroad. And how about now? Everything changed.
I promised to myself that I won’t let anyone change my heart until I’m 18. Because that boy who hurt so much made me unforgettable. I don’t know how to name all feelings I used to have since he left. The relationship between me and him were just friends. But I know I liked him so much that I didn’t have enough brave to tell him. Up to now, I’ve always felt regrettable why I did’n tell him about my true feelings. If I had said, everything might have changed .
And you, you know that. I told you about that because I trust you.And you, too. You usually told me about your girlfriend, your happiness you have with her, and even your arguments. You asked me why she believed in some else, apart from you. And I said it’s a challenge and you have to pass.
You used to advise me that I shouldn’t forget any memories but I should let them go naturally . Keep them as a good memory , not a thing always made me cry, hurt and painful. You said that I can’t hold anything else if I don’t let the one I’m holding leave.
When you told me that you liked me , I refused your love . You said you would be waiting for me. Having seen many films, I know it’s not true. Waiting for me? How long ?
But when I went out with you, we went to see movies. I felt very happy . I felt that you can understand me. And when I realize I think about you more than usual , maybe my heart is changing. I broke my promise . I lost with no direction . I lost with my heart.
How can I date with you? It’s right or wrong , I don’t understand myself. Because you are living in a different world from mine. Because I’m afraid that I can’t forget that boy yet. Because I’m afraid that I’ll hurt you.
What should I do ?